Friday, July 08, 2005
i've moved! relink!
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Thursday, July 07, 2005
wow. damn long since i last blogged. bleargh. sorryHe was my North, my South, my East and WestMy working week and my Sunday restMy noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;I thought that love would last forever : I was wrongThe stars are not wanted now : put out every one ;Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun ; Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.For nothing now can ever come to any goodoh man. this poem is damn freaking sweet right? haha. so sugary. yummy. i want to start a NEW blog. people. inspiration please.
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
been long since i lst blogged. life changed a lot. wad can i say? i want the creative zen neeon. but that is besides the point. alright. i cannot get myself into the mood for school still holidaying lah. which is like unacceptable lorh. today had the talk on subj combi. i dun wna split up. trip sci + geog/hist/lit. i can't decide. i love all the humanities but i need sciences. or my mum will just kill me. so how? and most imptly, i dun wna split. two six really makes my day. school sucks but for the sake of all the laughter we have. damn sad. but as stella would always say, im adaptable and receptive to changes lah. but two six, i will really really miss you guys. i love every single one of you. im not saying who. but i can't wait to get away frm the tchrsthe art of defiance. my lit review text. it rocks lah. you must defy everything. you defy your parents, your teachers, authority, the media, your friends, the society. the key is to defy. you must defy everything. it isn't that like cool? haha. i love that articlei dun see the key to my life. i need the key. i really need it. for everything. please someone. help me find it. btw, mrs yue, you rock. you make me wna take lit. a lot. but im praying the fan wun fall on me in class lah.life's pretty stale nowadays. you knw. kinda like bread. past their expiry date. it's kinda sad. haiz. i dun see the point in living on though i got no problems. it;s just..weird. i need inspiration. motivation. i need help.
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Friday, June 17, 2005
things are getting screwed. my ipod shuffle earphones are spoilt. and it costs 70 bucks for new ones. not fair. i want new ones. and so now im deprived of music when im on the go. freak it.going swimming later. swear to get myself tanned and possibly chaotah. but i doubt so. haha. i will put on some suntan lotion. and get tanned! yay. this post is to answer xian's question abt this blog being dead. :)i will blog more when i get back frm my suntan session. haha.
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
lots of views todaymixed feelingstoday was the last last day of the funeral. damn sad. seem not too long ago when i was at the hospital, praying for my great-grandma. seem not too long ago when i saw all my uncles and aunties and relatives. how long have we not gathered? i dunno. 5 yrs, i think. since another funeral. damn sad. our xu family barely gathers. all 97 of us. and after next yr. the family will expand again. 100. exactly. :) newborns! and why do we only gather at funerals. guess we all know the reason. we are too busy with our own stuff. and seriously, this is our great-grandma's funeral. which means no one else is older. which means not the whole xu family will be at the next funeral. cuz some of us are connected to great-grandma but not the others. and my uncles and aunties are all so young! early twenties. teens. blahblah. and they rock. now i changed my mind. all of them rock. why so? because in our body flows a certain strand of blood that binds us all together. inevitably, there were some scandals. especially with our charming mingxuan. haha. dunno why some pple crush him until like that. haha. and jiexi was like, "my brothers very shuai meh? why only i dun think so?" wrong, jiexi. i dun think so either. haha. im serious. they are nice and NOT ugly. but not that shuai till even married adults think they are damn cute. not to that extent lah. haha. although i kept being suan-ed. everywhere i go, it's "rgs, rgs, rgs". thanks to koh jiexi, my gugu. haha. and if we calculated correctly, i got abt 30++ uncles and aunties. haha. but we are really pretty bonded. as in, everyday you will see lots of people. great-grandma would nvr feel lonely. serious. i think everyday got at least 80 kaki lang [our "own" people]. it's seriously fun. and i dunno my relatives' names. even those i talk to.lemme see. i know we hv got lien ho, dong lun, mingxuan, mingjie, guoan, guoquan, bing gor.of course there is also primary 8 uncle and french fries uncle. both of whom i talk to a lot. but i dunno their names. aunties-wise, jiexi, yinling, yinying, jingni, alicia, yvonne, irene, serene and blahblahblah.got so many names. first day in the hospital. i stepped in. and i went, "guguS and shushuS". wad the hell. so many pple lah! and the only kiddo i saw was mingxuan. and guess wad? he knws all of the adults. as for me, i knw nobody. but we warmed up and soon, we talked and everything. everyone becomes great frens. the xu family seriously rock. most of us go to the funeral everyday. as in every single day. frm 10am to 3 am. not bad eh? haha. the xu pple talk a lot leh. and we arh. gluttons. esp the teenagers. esp koh jiexi and koh mingxuan. and guoan and guoquan. constantly finding food lorh. i mean, constantly. haha. and according to mingxuan's calculations', he ate 6 meals everyday. that is like, wow!? haha. and haha. a LOT of pple in xu family were in ITE and normal stream. some din even graduate frm pri sch. but guess wad? these pple earn like above $5000? not bad lorh. not bad at all. and the pro-est in the family. i mean for pple around my age, it's mingjie and mingxuan. mingjie is in uni and mingxuan is a marist. maris stella high. not bad lah. actually the XU pple got life skills lorh. super smart abt a lot of things. all of them. xu pple are smart. yay. haha.today was the chubin day. had to walk abt a distance of 4 bus-stops. quite near lah. then we took the arranged shuttle bus to guang ming shan, or otherwise known as, bright hill drive. haha. had to cremate the body. damn sad. i cried. cuz xiaogupo cried. den it was damn sad lah. i lost my great-grandma. she lost her mum, for christ's sake. dun tell her not to cry. it's impossible. how can you lose your mum, someone so dear to you and yet not shed a tear. sigh. then tiao dang. wahlau. i dunno hw to describe. to me it was normal. but a lot of pple freaked out. watching the coffin go into the flames, into the fire was emotionally draining. damn sad. and loads of pple cry but wad to do? their mum and grandma and great-grandma leh. i wld cry too. and i did. haha.watching your damn pro family get together so bonded and happy is the happiest thing ever. all of us barely knw each other in the start. but pls, we share the same strand of blood inside our bodies. and when these blood meet, they get along! i think this funeral is a blessing in disguise. we all bonded thru this sad thing. rly hope jiexi's and my plan work out. and for that to happen, we need everyone's help lah. i dun like pple dying. i mean who does? i dun even like funerals. but this one was fun, bonding, happy and nice as it is sad and touching and nostalgic. . but it's all over. im so going to miss it. i want my aunts and uncles please! i love my extended family! all of them. muacks. you guys rock!
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Monday, June 06, 2005
sigh. suffering from computer and tv withdrawal symptoms. miss the da vinci code special on channel news asia. damn sad lorh. haiz.
internal jokes of the XU family: a guide
*come! let's go catch spiders! my hands were bitten by the spiders! the spiders did that! the spiders did that too! wah! look at those spiders.
-i do not understand the obsession with spiders and that cigarette box. but it's damn funny lah. haha. and every kid goes, "let's go find spiders!" after every meal. haha.
* let's call _________ and complain abt the peanut not being able to crack open. better still, call the police!
-this is lame. but still remains comical even after reptition. dun try calling the police. our uncle did. and we found out no matter how you try to hang up after that, the phone line will still be connected. even if you PULL the telephone wire off.
* idol. grass. wave. blur king.
-some people are better left with code names and keep their names hush. haha.
i think the XU family rocks. variation of the english surname includes: koh, kok, kho and whatever not. damn fun. i dun want the funeral to be over leh! especially at night, after supper. all of us sit together. and crap! haha. damn fun. we just bonded. den shit. gotta split up. haha. i am sian. but still. sigh. if only i had a laptop. MUMMY!
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
today my great-grandma died. at the age of ninety-one. at 4.31 p.m. may lord bless her.
damn pissed at two people.
uncle #1 for christ's sake, i rly dun care if you wna go rj or hcjc. you are sec4. make that decision yourself. and you may like to knw that rj is no longer at bueno vista but bishan. you may also like to be informed that rj does not attract my attention. and im not interested in knwing your
great math results. and you might also like to knw that i was and will be sms-ing my
friends. and not all pple who come frm a single-ed sch is homosexual. you come frm a single-ed sch too. and you seriously need to keep your language in check. homosexuality is not smth you discuss over the dinner table.
uncle #2stop bothering all of us. stop acting cool and whatever lah. and your mouth eh. seriously should be sealed up. and i can't stand that high-pitched voice of yours. so learn. shut up. im not angry cuz im angry. im pissed off cuz you nvr said sorry. you knw you shld hv. damn you.
still there are very pleasant pple. my aunts. my cousins and my super cute
aunts and uncles who are actually in pri sch. damn cute leh.
just finish SL worksheet. it's now 1.43 am. just great. must sleep and then wake up at 5.30. go to mcs. and then RUSH back to yishun for funeral. dead. gonna be so tired. ahh. but i will survive.
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